Don't you hate it when people make a joke about you, about something that you are actually incredibly insecure about? And they don't realize it, but every laugh feels like a stab in your chest, because it hurts so much and brings up memories you'd rather forget, but you cant say anything, because then people would know your weaknesses. They'd know how insecure you really are. So instead you just laugh it off, and hide the pain you feel inside.
n my case I had a lot of thoughts when our debut was nearing. We were a large rookie group from a large agency and so we attracted a lot of attention. On top of that… should I just say this…? I’m the niece of the agency’s representative. I was greatly handicapped: I joined the group late, I was the representative’s niece, and I only had familiar and plain physical qualities: I was short, chubby and looked ordinary. Because of that I felt overshadowed when we did things together as a group.
But Kim Jaedong oppa gave me some good advice. He said: “As there are people who like you, there will also be people who will dislike you, no matter what. If people like you for a certain reason, then there will also be people who dislike you for that same reason.”
I don’t think I have to change myself because of people who don’t understand me.